Coffee, Outer and Inner Doings

The day is bright and sunny in the Greater Northern Catskills today. I shall be doing errands that I put off yesterday because I didn’t want to drive in the white stuff that was falling from the sky and cheerfully covering the ground. Yes, I got lazy. I’m a professional school bus driver and I’ve had my fill of snowy days this year. Not to complain, just to take a small busman’s holiday.

Every good day starts off with a cup of latte. In the ten years we’ve been together, my husband Alan and I have worn out 4-5 latte machines. The most reliable one we’ve found is Mr. Coffee’s latte maker, so each time we need to replace, we are brand loyal.

The best cups of coffee or lattes ever, start with our favorite coffee. These days Alan drinks Vermont Coffee Company Extra Dark organic and I have developed a solid taste for Starbucks’ Mocha flavor. If you have never made a latte, it is relatively simple: fill the tiny espresso basket to the top with your favorite coffee, turn the machine to brew the coffee, and when the desired amount is in the little coffee canister then turn the steamer on in the milk in your cup. When that is done, pour the coffee over the steamed milk. Delish! If you like add a dash of Nutmeg.

It may seem like I am rambling today, but I am deliberately slowing my mental pace down to give attention to the small daily things that I appreciate and often take for granted. This morning as I sip my latte, I have heard the blue jays arguing at the feeder, watched the wind tumble snow off the branches of the pines out my window, and have I mentioned that I am so, so appreciative of the sunshine today? I will be driving into Kingston for grocery errands and I should not have to contend with snowy conditions on the road. My busman’s holiday!

Prior to that, I will be walking the dog. She gets me out and about and moving even when my laziness quotient is arguing to stay inside with a good book. I am also decluttering the files on my computer so that I have space to organize and return to productive activity on my second book. This has been a good winter for taking a close look at how I’m running my life and what is and what is not working for me. I cannot afford to make changes job-wise, so I need to ask myself what in myself can I change to meet the situations? It helps to write my larger goals down, and then break them down into mutable sizes. But those are only the outward changes.

The deeper changes are the ones taking place within. For the past several years I have been on a journey into the shadowlands of my own psyche, doing the work of taking an honest and open look at myself and the difficult relationships I have had over my lifetime with other people, mainly family members who are now deceased. This included taking an honest assessment of my own role in how things played out and creating inner transformation by the practice of forgiveness. I feel emptied of that now. I feel that I have the clarity to carry the outward expression of my creativity to a new level.

We shall see. Meanwhile, I have my busman’s holiday to look forward to today!

Published by susanofthenorth

Susan Hintz Epstein is an author, Rune diviner, healer, non-academic scholar, and former Methodist Lay Speaker who was called by the Runes in 2013. The time since then has been a serpentine shedding of one skin for another, as Susan's spiritual practice with the Runes and the World Tree, Yggdrasil, deepened. Susan keeps company with the Norns and other like-minded women.

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