I visited my husband yesterday at the nursing facility. It is too easy to get caught up in the flow of negative imagination: “Oh, what if he had stopped smoking years earlier?”; “What if I had been more attentive to him before this happened?”; “What if? What if? What if?” I have to stop myself. These trains of thought do no one any good, and I know Alan would never have stopped smoking if the doctors had said he shouldn’t smoke at least until he healed up from his pneumonia, and if I had decided to stop enabling him by bringing him cigarettes. He’s clean two months now, and maybe his dementia helps the situation, because he does not always remember to ask me for them, but he also forgets that I have told him I am not enabling that old habit any more.
Two months ago the shaman I visit to help me keep my chakras aligned, predicted a Tower experience for me. This Tower experience, though uncomfortable, was destined to free me to do my own work in life. Today, I am in tune with my own strength, my inner fire, and most of all, my capacityContinue reading “Obsessions”
A month ago, my shaman did a Tarot reading for me. A Tower period was predicted, along with several other cards of the major Arcana, that if I held true to my convictions during a major upheaval, I would be moving on to new soul growth and a new phase of life with new opportunities.
Shadow Work is about turning to face yourself in whatever way you are discomfited, without projection and without blame. You have to begin with an understanding that you are part of any relationship you belong to, and consequently, what you experience from that relationship can teach you something about yourself.
I was rattling my morning ceremony by the Creek this morning, and I could feel the natural world around me asleep, as if waiting for something. The air had the feeling of snow, and now, six hours later it is snowing. I believe that Nature has a lot to communicate with humanity when we develop the skills for listening.
It’s not to say there won’t be hard times. But to everything there is a season, as that old song from Ecclesiastes goes. The wheel of the seasons goes around, time turns, and things are different again. Hopefully better than before.
One of the ways toward wholeness within my psyche, I have learned for me, my self, and I, is to try to bring together contradictory feelings within me. Sometimes these emotions are quite polarized along with their accompanying thoughts, but when I can hold awareness of my own inner contradictions at the same time I am experiencing meeting a trigger in life, I create the necessary inner friction for a point of change.
Well, sometimes writers write. Lately, it seems as if the needful aspects of life sometimes get in the way. I have been working on a book about my experiences with Hela and the Norns, was quite enthusiastic about my editing, and my computer, which was uploading iCloud drive, disappeared all my work. So I haveContinue reading “Writers Write, Right?”
I was reading some of the blogs that I follow, and found this one that resonates with some of my own thinking on the topic.. Enjoy! ~Susan
Wide awake at 2:30 am, and I am not sleeping. Most people I know complain of this, but not me. This is the time when I am most in touch with my dreaming, my problem solving, and sometimes communication from the Divine. 2:30 am is the time when the downloads are the most clear, andContinue reading “Up At Night”